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People are trickling back.

In Japan, People on April 10, 2011 at 1:34 am

I’m already back at work after my vacation. Have been for a week. Others are just now coming back. We’ll see what they decide to do, if they’ve decided. I’m going to stay. I’m going make it work here in Japan. I think I am, maybe. Yes, I am.

Shit, why am I here?

In Japan on April 7, 2011 at 8:31 am

I think your innagural post is supposed to be some variation on “Hello world, I’m here to take you on!” This isn’t that post. If anything the past month has shown me, in a battle of me v. the world, the world always, always administers the right hook.

I live in Japan right now. I was here for the earthquake and the tsunami and the nuclear whatever-it-is that was/is/ever will be happening. There was also a volcano and a snowstorm, but let’s not nitpick. I know this is old news for most. We’ve fallen out of the cycle and the world is on to bigger, better things. But, we are still here.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m lucky. Most people here are not. Most people here lost someone, or know someone who has, or worries that their kid is drinking irradiated milk. I’m childless. I don’t like milk. I am a foreigner, and it has benefits. I have little packets of home-government-issued KI stashed between the pages of my books. I have a current Chinese tourist visa and a lapsed first-aid qualification. I have a job and an apartment and plenty of vacation days. I’m not cash-strapped. My stock didn’t crash. I have the chance to go home if I want.

I don’t know what I want. That’s the rub.